::music::the ataris-giving up on love
this week has been up and down jesus i dont think that ive felt the same way for more that 10 hours since last sunday. but i learn alot from weeks like this...i learn to appreciate the people im surrounded by that care for me and really listen to me bitch (tim, nicole, jess..just a few) and who i really would go out of my way to protect no matter how fucked up things get...i dont know why im soo giving sometimes and why i try to make people happy i really dont understand why my mind works this way but im just trying to find someone to appreciate me back cause its hurts to be like this all the time....and i miss my mom and my kids like crazy i wish they were here thats been kiling me too...i wish i were 7 again the only thing i had to worry about was what tim rugrats was on, when i was gunna sleep over carries house again, if my mom was gunna let me have ice cream tonight, and making sure i was lipsyncing TLC in the car because carrie and her dad really didnt feel like listening to my singing..well enough of my bitching things could be worse and i get my dad's car tomorrow soo i think ill be ok.....i love these kids soo much!!!!
